Howcome every guy I ever met now looks like a complete retard? Last person I thought that would get that done is Yamashita… Never much agreed with him much 5 years ago, but he’s truly getting it “alien-like” these days;) Confirms my thoughts though. You have no idea how difficult this was for him, ‘haters’.

*cries* It’s actually the first time I’m going to say: “That’s what I want the person to be like I will spend the rest of my life with”. There’s more to it than having a pretty face and he’s approaching that status. xD. I guess I have a good instinct for men after all.

Guess the camera crew was out ‘scorpion hunting’ somewhere in the desert. hahaha. If this one is at least half-a-real (not so much tv, but true to himself) I commend him: I joked about him travelling by himself xD. I thought I was the only one being that nutsers!

kyaaaaaaaaaaaa ♥

*coughs* Okay, I shall return to the thirty years old that I am. Think I’ve been following his career for 6 going on 7 years now. All I can say is: ever since a year or two there has been a huge change in this man and I quite like it! I like the new Yamashita! The road to transformation is indeed no easy one, but then I think he’s still lucky he can take off as much time as he wants. I fear I had and have no such luxury, and looking at economic prospects it’s basically depressing. I wonder if the ‘haters’ realize what he must have been going through. Something that’s probably described as ‘cramped feeling, weight on chest’. Until you had that for months, perhaps years; it will be hard to understand.

“I want to get closer to nature” (= I want to get closer to my own nature). That’s not a new statement from Yamashita, now you know;)

In a sense I think my path was a little bit different; for a lot of reasons. Culturally of course, there’s a big difference. Next to that, I have always had this innate drive to just “go do what I like” and seek full authenticity in my life. In the past 2-3 years I’ve also come to realize a lot of people respect me for that and a lot of people also get very scared being confronted with me because I confront them with what they have left behind while I continue to persevere. It’s almost bizarre. The only thing is, which Yamashita probably will recognize himself, you always grow too fast before realizing the jacket truly doesn’t fit anymore. “Daite Senorita” when that one was a long time ago. To know exactly what’s going on doesn’t make you any less scared. That last thing is certainly an issue I need to work on myself. When quite a fearless woman starts to tell people that, you know this sh$t is serious.

I’m looking forward to “Ending planner”, truly wonder what kind of formula they’ll be going for xD. “It’s not morbid!”, he said. Depends on the definition haha. The topic fits quite nicely to the theme.

I like the long hair,  but, somehow I doubt he’s going to keep that for very long. xD.

I also see he’s been studying:) Still English? Hmm… not entirely I think. I see life sciences, mystical, chimerical. Perhaps not “right in the clouds” studies. But there’s more than the ‘earthy and realistic’. There’s something very spiritual about what he’s studying. So whatever it is, it has deep personal meaning. More words than that it will never give me, because that’s the limit. Unfortunate, but that’s the way it is.

I wonder what the next project is? He said we’ll know soon. *Waits patiently*

I needed to smile in regards to the October 16th entry! Awesome technology! Yay. Except for my friend here in MSN going on about a rant on why google decides to auto-login with gmail with youtube. Soz, cuz the bastards bought it! LOL.

Of course I approve of the wardrobe. V-necks. Don’t be too shy to show what you got XD.

Last subtitle is a surprise ain’t it;) He changes prefs like every day – nobody has a clue what he really likes. It’s the weirdest thing I’ve seen him say from the whole five six years I’ve been following his career. What happened? Ran out of things to make up? lol. Don’t worry hun, I’m a professional court jester – I know what’s that like:P

I had a chuckle at the elevator thing, he seems like the type to get jaywalking tickets too. Since when is he that much into soccer? lol. He should come live here:) I think I saw on the news we temporarily beat Spain off some kind of list (any excuse for an Amsterdam parade). Arrr, if I truly liked soccer my heart would still hurt talking about the world cup, ne.

Until the next time we hear more interesting stuff from Yamashita which doesn’t include aliens or UFO’s. You and me both know that shrine I linked above was visible from outerspace.

Not so surprisingly, I have difficulties with the word ‘accept’, though I do search long and hard for causes of trouble don’t I? Eventually when the cause of a problem is known, you’ll never have to accept again. Not from yourself or anyone else. I think the one thing I’m genuinely positive about in this life is aging; because age is my power in my case. Age is stability. Age is knowing. What you get to know might not be pretty, but it certainly has the ability to make life less complicated. What a bloody shame it always takes so long to age and you forget to live.

Eventually Yamashita’s way of thinking is totally opposite of mine. Because I know, as soon as I ‘accept’ a problem occurred I no longer have the energy to fix it. There are merits in both, but there are only few who can maintain a positive outlook on fixing something that has gone wrong. The thing I’d like to have the answer most to is: does that kind of approach also mean that once you’ve solved the problem you’re proud of yourself? I might have confidence, but my rather dry practical and anger-driven approach always prevents me from feeling joy or pride after having fixed a problem. Asin: “Good, it’s gone. Was that really necessary?” Asin: “Thanks, I just aged 5 years in 1 and it was too much in that short time span, really”.

Whatever the case, hardship will make you stronger, no matter how you face it as long as you face it. Without judging; but any force applied to a force that’s in your way or bothering you – no matter how subtle or explosive – the energy to do that is always from not accepting the way things are or they would stay like that forever. Funny enough, that’s what I thought in my car listening to this song.

Everyone of you, if you have the time
You must also read up (^0^)

I hate it when he does that. I’m like “WHAT IS IT YOU’RE READING DAMNIT?!” I would still like to know even though I hardly read anything anymore. Monday through Friday I just fall asleep and drool on my book anyways. Still: I need to know. I mean, is it a novel? Something informative? Wut?

As for the NEWSMILE entry, waw am I happy that I don’t feel so pushed to “hide” my real emotions. Usually it’s already bad enough to “hold it in somewhat” to prevent physical harm or coming off as a royal bitch. Even though I say my trade is overflowing with bullshit, nobody ever helped anyone by “nodding and smiling”. Can’t even service my customers if I only look at ‘em wanting to be so popular all the time. It’s safe to say I’d be the celebrity in the news every week: “Beats up a paparazzi”, “Rude to fans”, “Lol’d at other celeb, now feels insulted”, “Said something shocking on tv”. However, no matter what you are, I don’t believe in hiding yourself. In the long run, sadness and anger should be expressed or you’re basically killing yourself off a day at a time. No better way to stay in the past then to never retaliate TODAY for the sake of tomorrow. It all depends on what character you have, but I don’t believe for a minute anyone can last forever ‘faking that smile’. Something that Yamapi himself never does in photoshoots and I applaud. My goldfish, your deadfisheyes!

One other thing: I had a dream yesterday about Nino and Matsujun. I was being chased and they saved me! xD. Now I’m sad I can’t remember the contents very well.

In Tokyo too, many food stores are running out of supply.
In times like that the more we should not panic, let’s face this crisis calmly.

Asin: he’s still in the Tokyo area, apparently. I’m not too happy about it, but then again I didn’t expect anything different.

In the small chance I ever get to see him perform, I hope the words out of my mouth are not going to be: “By gosh, what radiating beauty” or “Kill the lights. It’s too bright since he’s glowing on his own”. *headdesk*

Coincidentally I’ve tried doing this a few nights ago. Not so coincidentally, a 29 year old chick hag that doesn’t get off from her ass all day long can barely touch her own toes.

Oh man, and to think I was one of the best in my jazz ballet classes one or two decades ago. <– Pffft hahaha.

So right now I’ve decided to think about how YamaGoldfish does his stretch exercises before I go to bed. Aaah~ Effortless. Honestly helps me sleep better too.

“Hey stretch! Want to help me stretch?!” Ah, even in my dreams I’m bound to regret that.

It’s not only me wondering where the jweb entries went, unfortunately now entire fandom walks by the bowl and starts tapping the glass wondering where you went. Are you hiding your skinny flippers behind the little castle or behind the largest rock in your bowl? Fish eyes, are you a-dead-man? If you aren’t plotting something rainbow-like, better swim more frequently where we can see you before you’re my personal sashimi. I didn’t think I’d say it: but when it comes down to it, we want another ni-ku joke.

Regards,
Feles-kun ™ and the fandom.

I’m never going to see him live anyways, so I try to avoid reading ANY reports while the concerts are actually going on. I still peek at Yama’s jweb, but then I get depressed again.

OKAY so I did see Tesshi in drag and Ryo rapin’ him up the ass. I think they could do that one for another 3 years. Surely will entertain people screaming fangirls of all ages.

Tomohisa Yamashita, such an unlucky person, his fans are so persistent they always check in on how he’s doing… At some point I might actually have to get my dentures to pronounce his name that’s how old I will be. I think I’m going to just call him Thomas by then. It’s a good Dutch name. He’ll just have to accept it. “Mr. Whatever”.

He still needs to eat more though. My “boys” aren’t completely up to bulk yet (“Tomo” and “Hisa”). :smile:

Somehow I think I’ve been around that scenery in that picture, but that could just be me. Is that near Hamamatsucho/Daimon, Hinode exit? That bridge before crossing the street for the water bus? Must be my imagination. It’s the problem if you’ve been in Japan! You go “HEY IS THAT?” and it’s not.

It also reminds me I should get a computer to name “Deep Thought” (Text version). As soon as I came up with that idea it became impractical because it sounds (and is) ass-slow. Haha, I truly love Douglas Adams too much. Only sci-fi novels I ever read and I don’t think there’s any better.

I can has a suggestion. If he ever does a romance drama again, I don’t want it to be standard like I mentioned a few entries back. So tired of chauvinistic pig meets dumb goose by now. Buzzer Beat I have chosen to erase from my memory. The exposure of Yamapi’s body every episode became rather hilarious because ‘that’s the part you’re waiting for’. lol. Hence it has been eternalised as Act 7: P-Cup to Strauss~. I wonder why he tries so hard to please the fans, because even if I don’t particularly like the concept of something he’s doing I can still be amused about it and watch a handsome man in the process. Good enough for me :D

Great Yamashita, now I want to be a screen writer. Thou has made Jack (more) insane.

“Think like a baka, and magical things happen”.

It seems YamaGoldfish had his party on april 12th? It sucks when your birthday is not actually on your birthday.

Read some translated repo’s of the filming of Ashita no Joe today. For some reason they always manage to freak me out. “Our shoulders brushed slightly… bliss”… I mean. Where do these folks come from? Probably the planet of Yamashita is the inventor of all good and true; doesn’t even need to use paper to wipe his ass. He’s that Godlike. XDD.

*grumbles* Can’t download the new scans of the mags yet because of my binary problems here.

Hey look at that, welcome to the 21st century Johnny’s. Oh well, at least we know they’re capable of registering domain names. Gee. Wonder if they’re good at using legal advice to threaten ppl who have already registered some names of their talents. *whistles* It wasn’t me. I’m a poor working girl. Of course it makes sense to go after your customers first.