Next time take it easy on the wine. lol. Beer is the beverage of choice haha. I was totally confused when I read it, the only thing mildly scandinavian about the rest of the entry is that most good metal comes from Scandinavia.

In regards to the weather: 10th of May it was really hot and humid and then it dropped almost 8-9 degrees. Perhaps it’s the same in Japan. What can I say, it makes me sick twice a year but it’s what I call home. Luckily it’s without tsunami’s and earthquakes. Still got the gift of the land of the rising sun burnt on my pale white face. You people gotta fix your sunlight over thar. I’m not landing on Narita without 50 sunblock ever again. Frog not like it! We know Tomo really likes his sunlight, but I’ll be doing the raindance everytime he mentions it. On the other hand, crispy yello-ish brown really suits him. The crayfish look I get from our god “Ra” never was a plus for me even though o-bachans in Tokyo tell me I look great. /sarcasm. Remind me to go to Japan when I’m feeling guilty about not getting a tan.

expl. Synchronicity, Carl Gustav Jung.

Astrologically the Sun/Moon are conjunct in 0 degrees Gemini, close to the Pleiades. While historically, because people did not understand the phenomenon, an eclipse spelled doom, it’s still used today in astrology to forecast events in personal charts, seldomly you see astrologers publically announce mundane events (sane ones anyways). South Node eclipses are astrologically rarely any good. It’s about past karma, loss, sacrifice or the release of accumulated energy. It’s best possible influence is “completion”. Anyone in the path of the eclipse with important planets in early Gemini be advised. Tomo doesn’t have any;)

He ate some rancid pizza here. It looked … aweful. I make way better ones.

He actually ended up signing autographs for a bunch of highschool guys. I think they had no real clue who he was, just that he’s a celeb and that was enough.

Haha!  He brought his own Route66 shot glas to this bar. Tequila is really hard to drink… for about the first 3 to 4 shots. After that, Tequila is a conversation between you and God on whether or not you should have had the omelet you had in the morning.

If I would have made an effort, which I didn’t, I would have understood more of what he was saying here. *facedesk*. The facial expression looks like something I’m interested in knowing about. Fandom, save me?

I just love Tomo chewing on food. But you knew that.

Oh so that’s how he got to know HANS UND PETER. Apparently from Flagstaff. MY ASS. You beer drinking wurst eating men, you. Dieses accent isst absolut nicht von Flagstaff, USA. Jetzt weiss ich noch immer nicht wo die beide Herrn herkommen /failGERMINfromDutch. They were truly a bunch of attention seekers, weren’t they? But, except for their love of Grand Canyon and America I haven’t seen them advertize anything. Or did they cut that one out of the DVD??

Then there was the Video Diary… which I hope fandom translates too! I only watched it until end because I just love a half-awakened face. xD. Something we rarely get to see, so it’s a real treat. It’s entirely different from when I wake up, for sure. He still looks cute. I look like a wild bushwoman that might knaw off your leg I’m that grumpy.

p.s. WHAT THE FUCK was this jweb about? Certainly not Doraemon.

He truly is a target-boy. I like that. Oh surprise there… I’ve got 4 targets I’m working on. Japanese is not even on my list because you people have to move that island closer before it’s of any practical use for me. On the other hand, let’s not. We know Japan is the plug that keeps the bathwater in. One of my targets is to finish my propedeuse in 8 months instead of 2,5 years or 1 year for a day student.

I’ve been writing a lot of Dutch texts these days and found out how much I hate writing it. The spelling might be correct, the interpunction is ‘so-so’ and has to be checked on over and over, but the real pain in the ass is that I use a lot of Germanisms. Well, some people would say I’m half a German just from where I live anyways. lol. I let my mom read my texts and she’s like: “noes, you is doin it rong!”. Besides that, after 30 years I can’t even find words in Dutch anymore, instead I use the English word. Even in conversation I’m like “random” when I mean “willekeurig”. I think in English, I blog in English, I speak Dutch like a German that’s not refusing to speak English. haha.

I speak English very well, aber nicht so schnell, maar dat komt nog wel.

Howcome every guy I ever met now looks like a complete retard? Last person I thought that would get that done is Yamashita… Never much agreed with him much 5 years ago, but he’s truly getting it “alien-like” these days;) Confirms my thoughts though. You have no idea how difficult this was for him, ‘haters’.

*cries* It’s actually the first time I’m going to say: “That’s what I want the person to be like I will spend the rest of my life with”. There’s more to it than having a pretty face and he’s approaching that status. xD. I guess I have a good instinct for men after all.

Guess the camera crew was out ‘scorpion hunting’ somewhere in the desert. hahaha. If this one is at least half-a-real (not so much tv, but true to himself) I commend him: I joked about him travelling by himself xD. I thought I was the only one being that nutsers!

kyaaaaaaaaaaaa ♥

*coughs* Okay, I shall return to the thirty years old that I am. Think I’ve been following his career for 6 going on 7 years now. All I can say is: ever since a year or two there has been a huge change in this man and I quite like it! I like the new Yamashita! The road to transformation is indeed no easy one, but then I think he’s still lucky he can take off as much time as he wants. I fear I had and have no such luxury, and looking at economic prospects it’s basically depressing. I wonder if the ‘haters’ realize what he must have been going through. Something that’s probably described as ‘cramped feeling, weight on chest’. Until you had that for months, perhaps years; it will be hard to understand.

“I want to get closer to nature” (= I want to get closer to my own nature). That’s not a new statement from Yamashita, now you know;)

In a sense I think my path was a little bit different; for a lot of reasons. Culturally of course, there’s a big difference. Next to that, I have always had this innate drive to just “go do what I like” and seek full authenticity in my life. In the past 2-3 years I’ve also come to realize a lot of people respect me for that and a lot of people also get very scared being confronted with me because I confront them with what they have left behind while I continue to persevere. It’s almost bizarre. The only thing is, which Yamashita probably will recognize himself, you always grow too fast before realizing the jacket truly doesn’t fit anymore. “Daite Senorita” when that one was a long time ago. To know exactly what’s going on doesn’t make you any less scared. That last thing is certainly an issue I need to work on myself. When quite a fearless woman starts to tell people that, you know this sh$t is serious.

I’m looking forward to “Ending planner”, truly wonder what kind of formula they’ll be going for xD. “It’s not morbid!”, he said. Depends on the definition haha. The topic fits quite nicely to the theme.

I like the long hair,  but, somehow I doubt he’s going to keep that for very long. xD.

I also see he’s been studying:) Still English? Hmm… not entirely I think. I see life sciences, mystical, chimerical. Perhaps not “right in the clouds” studies. But there’s more than the ‘earthy and realistic’. There’s something very spiritual about what he’s studying. So whatever it is, it has deep personal meaning. More words than that it will never give me, because that’s the limit. Unfortunate, but that’s the way it is.

I wonder what the next project is? He said we’ll know soon. *Waits patiently*

I needed to smile in regards to the October 16th entry! Awesome technology! Yay. Except for my friend here in MSN going on about a rant on why google decides to auto-login with gmail with youtube. Soz, cuz the bastards bought it! LOL.

Of course I approve of the wardrobe. V-necks. Don’t be too shy to show what you got XD.

Last subtitle is a surprise ain’t it;) He changes prefs like every day – nobody has a clue what he really likes. It’s the weirdest thing I’ve seen him say from the whole five six years I’ve been following his career. What happened? Ran out of things to make up? lol. Don’t worry hun, I’m a professional court jester – I know what’s that like:P

I had a chuckle at the elevator thing, he seems like the type to get jaywalking tickets too. Since when is he that much into soccer? lol. He should come live here:) I think I saw on the news we temporarily beat Spain off some kind of list (any excuse for an Amsterdam parade). Arrr, if I truly liked soccer my heart would still hurt talking about the world cup, ne.

Until the next time we hear more interesting stuff from Yamashita which doesn’t include aliens or UFO’s. You and me both know that shrine I linked above was visible from outerspace.

Not so surprisingly, I have difficulties with the word ‘accept’, though I do search long and hard for causes of trouble don’t I? Eventually when the cause of a problem is known, you’ll never have to accept again. Not from yourself or anyone else. I think the one thing I’m genuinely positive about in this life is aging; because age is my power in my case. Age is stability. Age is knowing. What you get to know might not be pretty, but it certainly has the ability to make life less complicated. What a bloody shame it always takes so long to age and you forget to live.

Eventually Yamashita’s way of thinking is totally opposite of mine. Because I know, as soon as I ‘accept’ a problem occurred I no longer have the energy to fix it. There are merits in both, but there are only few who can maintain a positive outlook on fixing something that has gone wrong. The thing I’d like to have the answer most to is: does that kind of approach also mean that once you’ve solved the problem you’re proud of yourself? I might have confidence, but my rather dry practical and anger-driven approach always prevents me from feeling joy or pride after having fixed a problem. Asin: “Good, it’s gone. Was that really necessary?” Asin: “Thanks, I just aged 5 years in 1 and it was too much in that short time span, really”.

Whatever the case, hardship will make you stronger, no matter how you face it as long as you face it. Without judging; but any force applied to a force that’s in your way or bothering you – no matter how subtle or explosive – the energy to do that is always from not accepting the way things are or they would stay like that forever. Funny enough, that’s what I thought in my car listening to this song.

Everyone of you, if you have the time
You must also read up (^0^)

I hate it when he does that. I’m like “WHAT IS IT YOU’RE READING DAMNIT?!” I would still like to know even though I hardly read anything anymore. Monday through Friday I just fall asleep and drool on my book anyways. Still: I need to know. I mean, is it a novel? Something informative? Wut?

As for the NEWSMILE entry, waw am I happy that I don’t feel so pushed to “hide” my real emotions. Usually it’s already bad enough to “hold it in somewhat” to prevent physical harm or coming off as a royal bitch. Even though I say my trade is overflowing with bullshit, nobody ever helped anyone by “nodding and smiling”. Can’t even service my customers if I only look at ‘em wanting to be so popular all the time. It’s safe to say I’d be the celebrity in the news every week: “Beats up a paparazzi”, “Rude to fans”, “Lol’d at other celeb, now feels insulted”, “Said something shocking on tv”. However, no matter what you are, I don’t believe in hiding yourself. In the long run, sadness and anger should be expressed or you’re basically killing yourself off a day at a time. No better way to stay in the past then to never retaliate TODAY for the sake of tomorrow. It all depends on what character you have, but I don’t believe for a minute anyone can last forever ‘faking that smile’. Something that Yamapi himself never does in photoshoots and I applaud. My goldfish, your deadfisheyes!

One other thing: I had a dream yesterday about Nino and Matsujun. I was being chased and they saved me! xD. Now I’m sad I can’t remember the contents very well.

In Tokyo too, many food stores are running out of supply.
In times like that the more we should not panic, let’s face this crisis calmly.

Asin: he’s still in the Tokyo area, apparently. I’m not too happy about it, but then again I didn’t expect anything different.

In the small chance I ever get to see him perform, I hope the words out of my mouth are not going to be: “By gosh, what radiating beauty” or “Kill the lights. It’s too bright since he’s glowing on his own”. *headdesk*