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Beyond thought: liked, but…

Feb
01
2012

I just watched this documentary on awareness. Lovely to see how many types of different people were interviewed on the question. It’s really refreshing. I needed to giggle at the guitarist though… yeap… that about sums up the metalhead. Response was never anger, nor adjustment, and as young as that they’ll be like: “WTF? Hey what you do is your thing bro, just don’t but into mine if we’re not resonating”. Sharp contrast with the dating agency woman, for instance.

But here’s the thing, stereotypical as it is being halfway through this doc: I wonder who the target audience is… Sometimes the topic or narrator; either of these two; needs to declare ‘they are now talking to 10 year olds’.

And then this woman came on and told about her friend whose son died and I went: “So you’re telling me grief is short-lived and suffering is forever”. Wait? Was this supposed to be a motivational film? Thirty nine minutes in I remember my Psych ed, and think: “gee they taught me sodium amytal applied to the left hemisphere for surgery immediately will make most people cry” (leftist, for a change). All hail the center where everyone should dance, imho (oh yes Rogers I hear ya). God help the person that actually is crazy enough to do that. lol.

Where this doc sort of ‘went off-road driving’ is positivism. A philosophy I’m not subrscribing to. “Think happy thoughts, good things will happen” or, in this case ‘think nothing, good things will happen’. I never thought for once growing up that it will, those trying are actually nailing their own coffin: *MUST MUST*. Sure way to see the ground up close.The other road to fail is to be successful at thinking *nothing*. I’ve personally never met anyone that was succesful at it, but once you do, you’re probably dead xD. The only thing you can do is to blame someone else or to blame yourself. That’s always internal, regardless of the external world, fact and infallible; provided reviewed with enough scrutiny – which is in effect interpreted through my eyes the essence of this documentary: the wish for death. (here’s input for my essay;).I believe knowledge is possible. Thought is not in the way of awareness, and what you should be doing a documentary on is authenticity and courage. Through these two words you experience ‘awareness’. “Hints” were already dropped through the entire documentary, but get to the essence and you’ll come to this.

Unfortunately the doc also uses ‘overused’ familiar visual illusions, etc. etc. So I was very bored with those. Still, really liked it. Good effort went into it, lots of viewpoints.

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Programming something…

Jan
31
2012

And then rethinking the entire thing!

:bawl:

Some things are still quite out of my league. I can find my way in Javascript (e.g. jQuery equivalent) but it’s not the same as being a fullblown javascript programmer for years. I need like a legion of examples to do it. Then I need to fuck around with it for hours on end to make sense of it, then I’m lucky to have a “Eureka Moment”. That’s of course not the way to learn what I call ‘a semi-decent programming language’. You actually have to want it, but… I’ve never wanted to program! I want result! Mash up a bunch here and there to get where I want, fine. Learning an entire language to be able to do one little cool thing is overexaggeratin’. I’ll put it on the list to do if I really run out of more sensible stuff to do down the road.

I got it to work eventually, but then I thought: fuck no, it’s not going to work! It would come close, but not precise! If you want to know how much of ‘anal’ Im talking about: I’m getting ready to trash an entire project: the effect onmouseover is perfect, but the image behind it will still show part of the original which isn’t what I wanted! Unless….I CHEAT. Depends if I can overlay the original div with background color white onmouseover… *raises eyebrows* It’s most certainly not the way it’s done, and any practised programmer will go: “I lol’d”…

Nobody will notice the difference and performance wise it isn’t a biggie. Y NOT! I go try my crooked fix for problem. I’ve declared war on this script as it is. If my fix works I’ll come back later pulling my hair out because there will be something else wrong… I just know it!

Edit: I besieged the castle again with my cheating methods: I WUN. Not only did I get that bgcolor white to work, but I also got the zoom in I wanted so much. Yeah. I’m still the meanest ‘generalista’ alive. lol.*raises eyebrows* Impressive huh, and I’ll be the damned idiot going: “Just don’t check out the actual code *grin* “. Even though I got the concept right and know I can move it “somehow”, the problem is going to be positioning. NOT TODAY. *facedesk*

In my search on the web, I came across this total ‘nerd-bitch-fight’. No,”this is how you program this, you idiot!” – one more elitist than the other. Gawd I can’t stand these types of discussions. Even if I’m capable of understanding it: stfu and show me loadtimes pal. Just like Chrome still fucks up grads on svg royally next to Firefox. (I could go on… and on….) Thumbs up on webkit and effects though, burries Mozilla.

I should complain some more, helps clear my mind. Jquery, bitch, I ain’t done with you yet. Momma’s comin’.

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