I don’t know whether I should be proud of myself or try to be a little more… I don’t know. Less Alien~. Figured out once again today that I like my affairs done efficiently and well. What I mean with that is that I literally have zero patience with anything else. I listen to people well I think, and I always include their ideas if they contribute but if it’s not here comes my problem: I become bored, irritated that I’m wasting my time and I have the tendency to become rather sadistic if I’m forced to stick with it. And I stick to it. I really try hard to hide my minor sadistic tendency and not act on it, but there’s something about affairs not done efficiently that makes me think of medieval torture devices. I don’t care who it is: coworkers, managers, cio-san’s, customers.You a h00min, I get horns growing on my head.
It’s not that I’m better, I’m simply not counterproductive. lol. I’d be a perfect candidate to start my own business because of that – if that only was a solution to not become bored and irritated I’m wasting my time. That’s correct, I’m closing my eyes to being self sufficient because it can’t take away what irritates me about being a wage slave. If the content of the work doesn’t give me enough drive, perhaps finding the answer to the following question is: What can you possibly live off of without it -irritating you-, -boring you- or have thoughts about medieval torture devices? LOL. I can live with some fail, but god no, not the kind that is IT. Even the crazy idea about astrology sometimes flashes through my head, though it could take me 10 years to become self sufficient on that with an extremely high chance of fail. But there, h00mins annoy me too. Just like I don’t like IT when it comes to old obstinate men, I don’t like teaching astrology because the thought of teaching 90% older women annoys me. That’s like reminding myself what I actually dislike about society. I can see myself in front of a class looking over my students and thinking “Mwahaha, the h00min race fails again”. I’d just like to do what it is I like doing, without being constantly reminded it doesn’t make any sense.
I have no patience trying to work with the ‘less able’ members of society either, if I’m honest. Because that’d require compassion and understanding things done not efficiently and then I’m conflicted again when I see a mental image of myself slapping this person around because I beat myself to shit for a lot more than most and could still function. I’m afraid I’d go “R U serious?”
That’s nuttin’ to whine about. I’d actually have to select h00mins again, by intake list. Six out of ten checked, you qualify – but now I no longer qualify to help you because I only got 4 out of 10 checked.
At least when I lose my patience now, the court jester can start to pester. That’s not any good for people that need help… The past six years have not been helpful. I believe they have helped to blow a character trait of mine out of proportion, plus, since IT suffocates in it’s own misery you kind of get a sense of humour about it that is … not helpful when it is compassion you need. You only run around with diplomatic ways of saying: “Hey lolcat, you’re FOS!~”, “I just facepaw’d, such fail“, “R U serious or on drugs?“, “I can’t stick my head as far up my own ass as you, how athletic“, “Sloppy-kun, now do it again“, “Quit being a butthurt, because this is the only way this works“, “It’s not a technical problem but PEBCAC (Problem Exists Between Computer and Chair)”, “Hey cap, should I light some firecrackers under your ass before you get a move on?“, “Do not make me explain this again for any other reason than a lack of intelligence”, “I’ve got a proposition for you, DAITY (Do As I Tell You)”, “He should stop going customer on us before I have him committed“, “Hyves: things IT ppls get from (l)users and spend a lifetime blocking on the network”, “No! Your problem doesn’t rate high enough to work on right nao“.
How anyone can run around all day while trying to keep their mouths shut and not say these things out loud is beyond me. If I could only do that, it’d be the best job ever invented.
Stuff to think about.
