I get the feeling some people find me a bit silly going to Japan on vacation on my own. XDD I’m not the only one though, my friend who is going to the States told me same thing a few days ago. People even say, when they hear about it, they wouldn’t do it. Plus, I get this extra creepy feeling immediately about doing this alone as a woman when I speak to someone about it. Like, I’m supposed to travel in a pack, high heels for hoofs. Often it then ends up in “why you single again?” conversations. Soz. So here’s my ideas on that:
Whenever I talk to a guy, where ever and however that is there is a certain point in conversation where you just feel the confidence ooze right out of him. Just something I’m noticing. I’ve been thinking about this problem for a long time, figured out: it’s not me or it is me for the wrong reasons. You got a few responses when it starts to ooze, depending on the type of guy.
1. Nerdy
Can actually be quite talkative with me in the beginning since as I’m a nerdgirl, I often have a lot of things in common. But all of a sudden, they don’t say anything anymore or become increasingly quiet. I kind of get the feeling they don’t find themselves interesting enough to share stories. They are also never direct enough to have me notice at all they like me or something. Then I hear from a lot of places: “Oh he likes you”. And then I’m like “Huh?”. This type ctrl+alt+del’s himself and probably for a good reason.
2. The talkative go-getter type.
Probably the only kind of man that has the energy and pazaz to actually keep me interested. They make one giant mistake though. Without myself inviting it, I think they revert to “playing interested, but then pretend you’re not interested to keep a girl’s attention”. Taunting or ignoring you in certain places of a conversation seems to be the trick for them. Then switching it around by paying attention and taking you seriously. I know I don’t start it the other way around, so what the fuck? This does really _really_ not work on me. Don’t let the door hit you, where the good lord split you. It’s not a good idea to pick up chicks honestly, you’re just being a h00min. Luckily, that’s one h00min that can let itself be ctrl+alt+del. I’d say find someone who finds your narcissistic ass impressing.
3. Wut? Hmm, type.
Joe Average. There is something strange with Joe Average. Something unreliable. Different in the way number 2 is, because they’re not doing it on purpose. You can kind of tell the difference between a conscious attempt and an unconscious one. I can’t do anything with a Joe Average, because he’s really confused. Confidence up, Joe is a pretty nice guy. Confidence down, Joe reverts into Nerd or Go-Getter. Make up your mind! I ain’t standing around waiting for the confusion to blow over you know. If you’re not making me feel special by being consistent (I ♥ consistency) I’m not going to wait around trying to guess what I’m getting. ctrl+alt+del, unreliable, inconsistent.
All I know is, don’t try to impress me with something – chances are you’ll fail. Be consistent, pay attention, don’t taunt or ignore me to try and see what my response to that is and you’ll do just fine. Also; don’t be too slick because it gives me the willies. Creepy. That’s a lot to ask of the gentlemen apparently… Oh, and could you be less emo? I seriously have a problem with that. The long face and that big pout… If it’s there it’s around you all the time and when you ask “What’s wrong?” … “*pout* Nuttin”. Meanwhile they just keep pouting and moping. You wants a hug? A cookie? The remote? Wants some soup? Are your feet cold? Was your boss a craphead today? Coffee? Wants to go out? Want to hear a joke? WHAT? If you can’t order, Virgo can’t serve. I’m supposed to be a mindreader. And every guy out there *knows* he’s done that or is being like that with his girlfriend right nao. ctrl+alt+del: get your long pouting face out of here if I can’t do anything for you because you’re wasting my time. Thank You.
I hate february really. First there’s valentine’s day and people declare their love for each other and after that is carnaval (it means an opportunity for infidelity for a lot of folks, ask em). February is the month of very short lived relationships, hehe. Personally I’m not that big on carnaval. Who’d want to kiss a guy with a clown’s nose? Have any idea how much you’d have to be drinking? I’d have to drink until I pass out, and generally, don’t like to do that in public. Call me retentive, but eh, I’m leaving february for the real psychopaths. lol.
…Hence, why I declare that wretched day Single Awareness Day. It only enforces the fact that I’m single *smh*
I find it hard to respond to the pick-up lines guys tend to(correction: attempt) to give. I get hesitant and start to analyze what he wants from me or what his angle might be. That’s why I usually find myself falling for a guy in which both of us meet in a friendly setting(school, friend’s dinner party, go-con<–lol) with no expectations and meet as friends then gradually start to have feelings over time.
I’m okay with that, as long as they don’t expect me to fall in a puddle of drool like this:
I know what you mean, I’m just unable to comply like that. Doesn’t mean I don’t like them. Doesn’t mean anything really. I was just not made with that kind of face when someone throws me a line.